Girls Night Out

I was up late last night.  No, not insomnia.  I was out and I had a great time!  Haven’t had a late night out in awhile.  Yes, my body was tired but I spent a wonderful evening with some of my best friends - amazing ladies that I have laughed and cried with for almost 30 years!  Yesterday we laughed,  we laughed at cheesy song lyrics from ‘80’s & ‘90’s  love songs...

You’re a candle in the window in a cold dark winters night...

When I’m in your arms nothing seems to matter my whole world could shatter...

Hold me now touch me now I don’t want to live without you...Nothings gonna change my love for you,  You outta know by now how much I love you...

Sometimes when we touch, the honesty’s too much & I have to close my eyes & hide,  I wanna hold you till I die, till we both break down & cry...

Ain’t no mistaking, it’s true love we’re making, something to last for all time, can’t you hear me i’m saying, I want you for the rest of my life...Together forever & never to part...

And of course anything from Air Supply.

There was some dancing to NKOTB & BSB too.

I say we laughed at these cheesy song lyrics but infact it was very nostalgic.  And really who am I kidding?  I love these songs,  These songs defined my whole teenage years and into my twenties.  These are my break-up songs, slow dance songs, and my wedding songs.  These are the songs on the mixed-tapes The Big Oh made for me!  And no matter how many songs or music my children make me listen to these days nothing is quite as good as the songs I listened to while growing up.

Cheers to old friends & sappy love songs!

Y.C.

Do’s - No Don’ts

Let me tell you how this works.

Don’t tell me to rest.
Don’t tell me what I can or cannot/should or should not do.
When I want to drive - let me drive.
When I want to cook - let me cook.
When I want to go shopping - let me go.
When I want to stay up late to watch a movie - let me watch.
Because I know one day, probably sooner than we are expecting, I won’t be able to do all these things and more.

I know it all comes from loving me, worrying about me, and hoping for me.  Hope that if I rest and save my energy I will get better?   What am I saving my energy for?  I’m not saving myself for anything.  I am going to use every ounce of energy I have each and every day because I really don’t know how many tomorrows I have left.  I am not being melodramatic.

There aren’t a lot of things I can do anymore so please let me do what I can and what I want to.
I can still wake up every morning and make my children their breakfast and help pack their lunch.  Granted some mornings it can only be cereal, and really my M1 is more than capable of making lunch for herself & her sisters.  But I can still do this and I want to do it!  I saviour these little things.  Right now, it’s all the little things that count.

Y.C.

Dance High

I’m writing this at 4:00 o’clock in the morning.  Wasn’t able to fall asleep tonight and it’s now too late to take a sleeping pill - I have to be up early for a rare weekend hospital appointment.  I guess it’s the adrenaline from this evening’s dance show I went to watch with M1.   It wasn’t that I was excited about the show (which I did enjoy）but I think my high is from  seeing how much M1 loved watching some of her favourite celebrity dancers AND GETTING TO MEET THEM after the show!

When M1 found out Travis Wall was bringing his Shaping Sound tour to our area she asked to go right away.  We bought these tickets 3 months in advance - something I really hesitated to do as I didn’t know what my “schedule” would be like or how I’d be feeling - I have written how difficult it is for me to plan anything more than a few weeks in advance. But I am so glad I put my worries aside this time.  I am so happy I was able to go with M1 tonight.   She was immersed in the music, story, and of course dance the entire evening.   At the end of the show she found out her friend that we went with got her a pass to meet the dancers backstage!  She was estatic!  I don’t think I’ve ever seen her fan-girl side come out like it did tonight!  It was the first time she met a “celebrity” - someone who’s work she’s been admiring for awhile now.

As soon as she got home she did what any normal girl her age would do - post her pics on IG - and the wave of messages started coming in.  For the next hour she juggled between answering all her messsages and telling the Big Oh and sisters what a fabulous time she had.

I am so happy I got to experience this evening with her.  These are the moments that I live for now.

Y.C.